A Bout With the Doubts by William Nickles

A Bout With the Doubts by William Nickles

John 20:19-20:31

I know we all have heard about Thomas. “Doubting Thomas;” poor ole doubting Thomas. The guy has caught grief

for 2000 years and my guess is that he will catch grief for the next 2000 years – or until the Lord returns. To be

honest, I feel for the guy. Our tradition has singled him out as having an inferior faith because he actually

expressed his doubt in the resurrection. He made his reservations known out-loud. And because of that he has the

dubious distinction of being the poster child for skepticism. But you know what is even worse for ole Thomas is

that most people know what a “Doubting Thomas” is even if they have never heard this biblical story. His name is

simply synonymous with doubt. All you have to do is pick up a Webster’s Dictionary and there it is. Actually, it is in

two places: under “d” for doubt and under “t” for Thomas. According to Webster the definition for a “doubting

Thomas” is a habitually doubtful person. Habitually?! Goodness, we don’t know a whole lot about Thomas, but the

only time – the only time – we see his doubtful side is in this story. So, I think ’habitually’ might be overstating the

case just a little bit.

But in any case, we still are left with a man who appears to have a crack in his wall of faith through which a little

doubt is oozing out. And can you really blame him? What he is asked to accept is fantastic. And keep in mind he is

hearing about the resurrection second hand. The other disciples had the advantage of seeing Jesus in person a

few days prior. So, for Thomas, not having had the encounter with the risen Lord, this tale being spun by the

delirious disciples is a bit unbelievable. Even for us who have the benefit of knowing the end of the story, this

seems unreal. I mean it is not every day that we hear about folks rising from the dead. In fact, I think I would go

out on a limb and say that it is a fairly rare event.

So, Thomas, having heard the news that the disciples saw Jesus alive, was understandable skeptical. Put yourself

in Thomas’ shoes for a minute. Just like Thomas, pretend that you have never heard the story of Jesus’

resurrection. And one day, after having attended a funeral for a friend, someone comes up to you and says

excitedly, “You’ll never guess who I saw at Winn Dixie today. She looks great! Heck, to look at her, you’d never

guess that she died last week.”

Think how you would react to that. I think my first concern would be for this person’s emotional well-being. My

second thought would be that whoever my friend saw must obviously bear a striking resemblance to my deceased

friend. The idea that someone would be walking around after having died the previous week is so far beyond the

realm of possibility that I wouldn’t even entertain the thought of it. And my guess is that not many of you would

either. And yet, we somehow expect Thomas to accept this news in a matter-of-fact way; like this was no

surprise at all.

Poor ole Thomas has the become the scapegoat for the church which sometimes says that doubt is wrong; or that

it is somehow less than faithful to need a sign, or a touch, or a vision, or a personal encounter. We get the

impression that we are not allowed to ask the hard questions without being labeled a cynic, or a skeptic, or a

liberal. Since when are questions bad? Since when is it wrong to admit that we don’t understand everything? Since

when is it wrong to ask God to clarify something? Read the account of Job, or the Psalms. Both are filled with

uncertainties, complaints, and questions of God. Even Jesus while hanging on the cross cried out to God, “Eli, Eli,

Lema Sebacchtini – My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?” Thomas is just one in a long line of faithful

people who have raised their voices to ask the hard yet faithful questions.

Folks, faith lies in conversation. I guess what I am saying is that faith is really what prompts the conversation.

Faith is when we are willing to embrace the doubts, ask the questions, and face the answers. Faith is believing in

something that is beyond our ability to comprehend it, but it is not afraid to try.

I think this story is a testimony to the difficulty of faith – how hard it is to believe. Faith takes work, because it

puts us in uncomfortable places and begs us to ask tough questions. I also think this story validates our need for

God’s touch. It says that it is okay for us to ask questions of God and… to wish for a personal encounter. There is

nothing cut-and-dried about the Christian faith. It cannot be reduced to a set of rules, where everything fits,

where everything makes sense, where all we have to do is to connect the dots. That is the kind of thing the

Pharisees tried to do. They tried to explain everything in a formula; to make all of life so that it could be answered

by a set of rules. And if it didn’t fit within that set of rules they rejected it as heresy or blasphemy. And

consequently, their hearts were closed to the renewing of Christ simply because he didn’t meet the criteria. Their

unwillingness to look "outside the box" blinded thems to the miracle of Jesus Christ who stood in their presence.

God comes in places where we sometimes least expect it, showing us that “possibility” has nothing to do with our

being able to explain it. Sometimes our faith asks us to look outside the box; to color outside the lines and to

believe some things that the rest of the world says are ridiculous. Or... our faith may ask us to do things that the

rest of the world says are folly.

But, like Thomas, faith begins with an encounter. It has to begin with an encounter, because without it we are

unable to believe. Without an encounter with God, the resurrection seems as silly as seeing Elvis in the grocery

store buying peanuts. It is ridiculous. But an encounter with the risen Christ changes all of that. Suddenly, the

absurd becomes a new reality, and rules which once governed our believing - and our dis-believing - are blurred.

And even the lines between life and death, which once seemed so absolute, are crossed.

Make no mistake about it this is a story of doubt, but it is also a story of God’s ability to change that doubt into

faith – not erase the doubt, but overcome it with an irresistible encounter with the impossible. Faith is that crazy

thing that allows us to believe when everything else says, “impossible.” This story is important because when we

can see the possible through our own cloudy, disbelieving eyes, we suddenly can see an entire world of possibility

far beyond what skepticism would allow. God has overcome the grave, and now God even overcomes those things

that lead to our death – things like disbelief, fear, hatred, and narrowness.

And even though this is a story of doubt, it is the miracle of faith that we are ultimately left with. Minds are

opened, hearts swell with the words, “My Lord and my God!” All because of a personal touch and a vision of our

Lord. Without it, we just continue to wallow around in our own doubt, or remain a hostage by the world’s rules

that cling to the impossibilities.

I began this sermon by sticking up for poor ole Thomas. And I think his reputation needs a little polishing. He really

wasn’t such a bad guy. In fact, he was no different from the other disciples; he was just a week late! The other

disciples also needed a personal encounter with the risen Jesus JUST AS MUCH AS THOMAS DID. Read the story

again. I think you will see that all of them reacted with fear and disbelief at first.

Faith and understanding began only after Jesus made himself known personally to each of them. And isn’t it

exactly the same for us. We remain solidly in our own skepticism until the Lord breaks through the locked doors of

our hearts. The miraculous news in all of this is that God searches and finds us even when we don’t want to be

found. Even when we lock ourselves away from the world; even when we try to keep out the good news, Jesus

breaks through that door.

The stone door that barred the tomb couldn’t restrain him. He had conquered death and he was going to make it

known to his friends and to the world. And no flimsy wooden door could stop him from coming into the disciples’

room. And when they saw him they rejoiced. They cried out in faith. And for the rest of us as well, the Lord

appears breathing his Spirit into our hearts literally blowing away that mountain of doubt.

We all need a personal encounter with the Lord before we can declare, “my Lord and my God.” A second-hand

Jesus just will never do. We need God to break into our locked hearts and to give us that encounter.

I suppose what I am trying to say is that we have all been doubting Thomas’ at some point in our lives. But it is

into our doubting and searching hearts where Jesus breaks in and reveals himself to us. God knows our need for a

first-hand encounter. That is why God came to us in the person of Jesus -- took on flesh so that we could see

him, touch him, hear him, and be touched by him. And he died for all of us -- died on a cross, raised up for all to

see. We have been given a vision of God’s sacrificial love in the person of Jesus. And we are touched by God’s

Holy Spirit, who breaks through and breathes life into our faithless and doubting hearts, causing us to cry like

Thomas, “my Lord and my God.”

The end of the text we read this morning declares, “these things are written so that you may come to believe that

Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing you may have life in his name.” After the Lord

breaks into our hearts and we have declared “my Lord and my God,” there is a life that proceeds from that point.

God calls us out of our locked rooms into the world. When we declare our faith we can no longer sequester

ourselves in the safety of silence and detachment. We are called to show our faith for the sake of others. So,

when others hear our testimony, may they not simply hear words, but may they see Jesus Christ alive in our

hearts and lives. The ways we love each other; the ways we respond to those in need; the ways we are

responsible with all God has entrusted to us will be visible evidence of Jesus’ presence in our lives. Others will

come to faith, not by what we say, but by the way we live God’s love. Be a vision of Christ for someone today.

Let’s help someone have a first-hand encounter with the living Christ in the way we open our hearts to others.

Amen.